Fic: I Know Him So Well (for baranduin)

[remix-puppet.livejournal.com]

Title: I Know Him So Well
Author: trianne
Characters/Pairings: Frodo/Sam
Summary: Sam knows his master so very well…
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 544
Disclaimer: All recognizable characters are the property of the Estate of J.R.R. Tolkien. No offense is intended, nor profit made.
Title, Author and URL of original story: untitled drabble (the first one), by baranduin.


I Know Him So Well

I love him. There, in my head I can say it: I love you, Frodo Baggins, Master of Bag End. I love you, body and soul.

But in a respectful kind of way, of course.

I added that just on the off-chance he can hear me. That Ring, it's a queer kind of thing and mayhap it can bestow strange powers on him what bears it. Him in this case being Frodo, Master of Bag End. Who I love, but in a very respectful kind of way.

Oh bother! He can't hear my thoughts, Ring or no Ring. And if he could, he'd just have to hear 'em and live with the knowing that his gardener has feelings above and beyond the appreciation of a fine begonia. I can't spend the rest of the journey trying to stop myself thinking thoughts what are honest and true, albeit a bit off-colour; 'twouldn't be natural, normal or right.

Samwise, you clod. Look at him. He's lying there, curled up like a bairn, curled up into his very own self to keep hisself from coming apart at the seams. What thoughts is he having? Is he thinking about love and kisses and suchlike? No! He's thinking on the best way to get the job done; he's fighting off the evil what's in that Ring, that's what he's thinking and doing. And like as not he's thinking of you and your best interests, not wanting to let you down. You should be ashamed of yourself, pandering to your imaginings when he's in such a pickle.

But I love him.

Yes, you do. It don't help repeating it, though, do it? Even in the privacy of your own head. So you want to lie with him and lay his head in your lap and stroke the hair from out of his eyes. So you want to taste him and be with him and lose yourself in him and have him lose himself in you.

Well, he needs you strong and clear-headed. He needs you to be his friend. Look at him; asleep but breathing all shallow as if something might come along and snatch the very air from his lungs.

But I love him.

Yes, you do, for who could not? And now you're just like that stinker, Gollum! Talking to yourself, back and forth. Wanting but resisting. Desiring but not taking. He needs you, Samwise; needs you and is relying on you. You're his rock, his shelter, his helpmeet.

He's waking. Look sharp, Samwise – those cracked lips need wetting, and not with kisses, either. Where's the water skin? Ah, here 'tis.

Now see? That look in his eyes as he takes the skin? He needs his Sam, needs him more'n ever.

That Ring can't come between you. And when this is all over and that blasted thing is done away with, then who knows? Maybe you can tell him then. Tell him that you love him. And maybe he'll say he feels the same. Maybe he'll say that he always felt that way, on every step of the way to Mount Doom. That his heart was aflame for you but he couldn't tell you.

Fanciful, aren't you, Samwise? It's a good thing he can't hear you!

Oh Frodo.

Comments

[belleferret.livejournal.com]

Very nice! I like how Sam realizes he's arguing with himself like Gollum does, and the turnaround of the last line!

[trianne.livejournal.com]

Thank you for reading :) Lovely broody Sam icon you have there!

[baranduin.livejournal.com]

Wow! This is beautiful -- you took a silly one-off drabble I wrote in a few minutes and really made a wonderful fic out of it. Thank you so much! *smooches*

[trianne.livejournal.com]

Glad you liked :)

[baranduin.livejournal.com]

It's very disturbing that you can make me like Frodo/Sam but there it is :-) You've got Sam's voice down so well and that's so hard to do.

[danachan.livejournal.com]

Oh wow, this is really very beautiful!

[trianne.livejournal.com]

Wow, thank you Dana :D

[ex-lbilover.livejournal.com]

This is really well done, and I can imagine Sam having this internal debate- it sounds so very much like him. You did his voice so beautifully. The comparison to Gollum gave me a little chill.

[trianne.livejournal.com]

Thank you, sweetie! *preens*

[claudia603.livejournal.com]

*grins*

I do love it when Sam gets between Frodo and the call of the Ring! A flame stronger than those at Mount Doom! Lovely!!

[trianne.livejournal.com]

Love Quest fics! Thank you for reading, darling :)
And thank you for writing my remix, which if it wasn't so late at night I'd be able to link to... :) x

[sophinisba]

I love how this is so short but still manages to take you through so many emotions. When I went to look at Lora's drabble I kind of snorted at the first line, but then it turned out to be this really lovely sad thing. And then the same thing happens with your remix, where I was giggling at first over "But in a respectful kind of way, of course" but then you made it into something so sad and great. I fear I haven't told you but I've always loved the way you write Sam.

[trianne.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. Your words mean even more, having had the pleasure of meeting you. You were one of my favourite people in Chicago (probably shouldn't say that, but it's true!). xxx

[baranduin.livejournal.com]

Sophie is good people. *nods*

You should have seen her and Claudia in Houston, both of them lying face down on a bed with eyes wide open listening to me and Aprilkat talk fandom gossip. I wish I'd gotten a picture of that!